Lonely

Some times I feel like I’m trapped on an island. I’m not like everyone else and sometimes that isolates me. I try hard to keep that from happening but it does. My best-friend K just went on a date with a guy that sounds like a winner. I’m so happy for her, she deserves a winner!!!

But it got me thinking; will I ever go an a real date or fall in love? I want to do everything that’s normal, like everyone else. But I’m not like everyone else and that’s ok. I get it and at times I love it. I want normal, I see my self as normal and dream as if I’m normal. I see my self in the perfected wedding dress.
I hope I get to wear that dress one day, right now waiting to see if that happens is hard and trying. I have great friends and a wonder family, but its hard to stop over thinking.