Elephant in the Room

Some days it feels like there is a giant elephant in the room. Yesterday I felt out of sync, lost. I well less normal some days. I try explaining what I’m feeling but can’t because of that dam elephant. Its there everyone can see it but no one talks about it.

The elephant is my CP. I want to say something but am not sure how. I know it keeps people from talking to me. I see it in their faces. We talk and have a good time but the first time they see me get up and walk away its over. They might not know it but they never seem interest again. That elephant is there now and it will not go away now.

I feel like I’m losing relationships every day due to that elephant. People assume I can’t relate to them because of it. Even my friends seem to leave me out of major relationship development. I get left out of a lot of stuff and now people will not talk to me about section things.
I’m a person too. I should confront that dam elephant but I can’t its hard for me. Its like admitting defeat. I don’t want to come on to strong an scare people way but I’m already doing that.