Life

I was talking with a friend with CP and we both agree that agree that CP is something that’s not very attractive and it makes people not want to get to know “us”. It’s been my experience with guys more than girls. A very good friend told me “I don't think that's fair...it's saying that people are too superficial to look beyond the physical”. I 'm not saying there are n0t good guys or that all people are superficial, but boys make jokes with their friends and some times the fear of those jokes are enough for people to not let themselves get interested in me even though I pretty out going. Well it not like I feel like this all the time it just bugs me. I don't think I’m going to become bitter or anything. But it’s hard to voice what I’m thinking because people see it but never want to talk about it. They seem to be more mad at me, like I’m being to judgmental. I’m trying not to be and I see people as individuals not as a group. But the urge to be normal is so strong that it is hard not to want to be like everyone else when it’s in your face all day. I respect people more for their differences than there similarities to other people. Even so it would be nice to be seen as normal but people other than my family and close friends.