Hanging by a thread

Some times I feel like my CP makes it hard on my relationships (friends or Guys). I try to plan things out so I know what kind of shoes to wear. I don’t like surprise or unexpected its one more thing I have to think about. When my mind is thinking my feet don’t always do what I want. I fall down more when I’m trying to find my way around a new place or when I’m preparing my self for something like an unexpected event (surprise). I have to think of things more than most people when it comes to walking some where. I have to thing about how I’m getting there, what to do if I have to go to the top of a building (what if the elevator is broke). These are the things I have to think about each day. I try not to bring that stuff into my relationships with friends, but at some point it comes up and I know it changes things. This makes things more tenuous when it comes to having friends, that’s why my relationships feel like there hanging by a thread.